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a peacefull day
of calm progress
but not to stay
to be depressed
the people working
like they should
what happens next
nobody thought could
it all fell to catastrophy
for the continuing apathy
years ago it happened
and we still dont forget
for so many were lost
the morning cant quit
others were lost
at the Pentagon
but what we all remember most
is how the twin towers were one
the people doing
what they should
the image thought now
nobody would
the sound was suddle
then grew so loud
and then came the crash
which sent the towers down
the ash and smoke
the people in pain
which their families in took
their faces tear stained
the surrounding people cried
as I stood in blanke awe
with no expression on my face
holding it in to stay
then a tear betrayed
I hope nobody saw
I tried to stay strong
I think of how they’re in Heaven
but when the aniversary comes along
I cry the tears I never could
on 9-11

the early dawn breaks
as I get sadder
for I was already awake
in that matter
the sun is my moon
as the stars are my clouds
and the moons emits light
that shows me around
the distant moaning
of the dearly departed
clearly disowning
their pain which re-started
as the children run
through seven to dawn
midnight is when they come
when everyone is gone
the monsters and ghouls
to imitate the lost
looking like tools
not knowing the cost
All Hallows Eve
the night of all nights
where pitch black is all you see
yet the moon shines bright
I awaken each twilight
and rest not
for daylight is my resting time
I loath such a pattern
as I love Hallows Even
such a silence so loud
a symphony never completed
yet the moon creates a shadow
of shining sweet songs
urging the children
to sing along
they know not the danger
nor what they call
as they’re singing a song
of a devil rising tall
they see not the pain
brought by demonic disguise
as their smiles move sweetly
with tears in their eyes
controlled by the lost?
what an immature thought
yet the truth lay in lies
as the lies become true
may you go feast on horror
as All Hallows Eve ends
and may you rest in peace
when Hallows Even decends…

silver secrts spin webs of demise
to cover the ashy ruins of lies
allowing the saphire distance to darken deceit
while music plays calm to stop at the beat
the world shall fall
and rise even yet
whe one finds what is all
they quickly forget
who is the spirit
of scarlet lightning
though few souls hear it
and it’s merciless striking
a whisper of violet hangs in the air
while her dearest regret hangs inher hair
she lays in a tomb
forever is set
endlessly waiting
an apology yet
tomorrow is all forever shall need
to shine false hope
in your heart’s deepest seed
eternity turns to seconds
endlessness she awaits
only to see rust
on those pearly white gates

the silver secrets that poison our minds
the azure deceit that hope left behind
as violet truth whispers black death to take
she leaves with nothing but scarlet blood in her wake
the distance of saphire pain
carryng black death over her plains
the maroon hope of dreams
silenced by amber screams
the ibis of tears true spiritual color
the jasmine that surrounds each mother
a father has no colors
not even hate
for all he contains
is the devil’s cruel fate
the devil of sable which surrounds him so
as his demons and worshipers seal their fate to Wo
may the number three carry same as five
for the evil russet color they each hide behind
though in the end of black death
most souls true would match
Jesus is pure life
forgiveness cleans white
but you must take His hand
or all your colors dissapear
for your life has it’s lost light

I’m not confused
Im just me
I’m not being used
why can’t you see?
I’m the way I am for a reason
I don’t give a damn if you think this is treason!
just shut the fuck up and listen for once!
I hide my anger
and shove fake happiness in front
I smile so you’ll leave me alone
you already took my saftey
my home
I laugh so you’ll just go away
thats why I get angry
when you insist I stay
I don’t give two shits if you think I’m too vain
you havn’t been through my kind of pain
I swear I’ll bury you six feet deep
if it means I can finally get some sleep
I’ll throw you away
for eternity and a day
and maybe you’ll finally learn
to stay away

you idiot
you fool
why can’t you see?
you dumbass
you fucktard
I’m more than you think
I’ll scream till Im hoarse
and show no remorse
and keep on running
and keep hating with brute angry force
I’ll start a riot
if it means you’ll be quiet
just get the fuck away
I don’t feel like it today
you ask me whats wrong
you obviously havn’t been here very long
Im pissed the fuck off!
thats whats wrong!
why else would I yell
at the top of my lungs!
these aren’t tears of joy you stupid little freak!
you spineless, stupid, piece of wasted meat!
adn you dare suggest peace?
are you out of your mind!
if we release
we’ll destroy all mankind!
you pathetic little idiot
it’s plain to see!
I hate you!
so why don’t you hate me……..

Ok so I’ve had this stalker for a while now! ((Ill just refer to him as “L”))
He’s really freaky y’know? He’s got brown eyes and black hair, and almost always looks like he just crawled out from under a bed. Don’t get me wrong, he’s really smart and stuff but he seems to obsess! Plus he’s like one of my best dude friends, and he doesn’t even know I’m gay!
I’ve told him no a million times but he keeps on saying he loves me, that he’ll never give up, that we belong together, etc. If I wasn’t lez I’d probably date him, but I AM lez so I can’t!! Plus I can’t even tell L WHY I can’t date him because I haven’t come out as gay yet! L also doesn’t k ow that I have a thin for B so I’m pretty much screwed in that department as well!!!
Someone help an awesome gal in a really not awesome situation out?!

Ok look! I’m a girl and a lesbian and I’m TOTALLY into this other gal ((Ill just call her “B” on here)) but I wanna be a pastor!!! I’m Christian and according to my religion a pastor can’t be homosexual so I’m pretty muck screwed!!!
Plus B doesn’t even know how much I like her!!!
I’m looking foreword to Valentines Day because about a month and a half ago I bought her this expensive red crystal heart necklace with the money I was gonna use on art and cosplay!
GOG! My family doesn’t even know I’m gay so that just plain out sucks and only two o my friends know!!! B is bisexual and thinks I am too, so she knows that it a logical possibility for us to end up together, and had even admitted that she had a thing for me before!! I I did it once I can certainly do it again!!
BACK ON TOPIC!!
I want I e a pastor/exorcist but my religion doesn’t allow for me to! It’s something I really wanna do!! But I’ve liked B for such a long time now! There’s NO WAY I can just give up!!! She’s the only person I’ve liked this way since I was a little kid with silly playground crushes!!
I really want this occupation, but I really love B!
What should I do?